the style of a woman, the kiss of a man

You know, this thing was even more embarrassing because my relationship with my brother is more paternal than fraternal. He’s only nine years older than me, but it feels like it was more (for example, it was him, not my mother or my father that choosed my name), I grew up with him being my father figure, and I am not prude person, but I am a very, very shy person and god, it is downright embarrassing.