“I sat down at the end of the bar instead of going to my usual place on the second level. I wasn’t sure how long I wanted to stay; I just had to get out of the crowd and a grip on my feelings. I was in a dangerous mood.
Ever since that ridiculous holosuite program, I thought. The spy game. Well, of course it’s a game. It’s all a game. But it’s not a holosuite program. And yet, the moment Julian wounded me with his ridiculous weapon, everything changed. I thought it was a magnificent moment. He showed me that he had the spine to play the game as it ought to be played. But why then did he back off? Why couldn’t he go beyond that moment? Why did our relationship end?” — A Stitch In Time (DS9 novel) by Andrew Robinson
ans-summer:
Here’s some angst, because… well, Garak and Bashir.
The quote is from ‘A Stitch in Time’ by Andrew Robinson (obviously).
"I know we have grown apart and that’s as it should be. We learn what we can from certain people, then we move on after we’ve taken what we need. When we learn nothing new about ourselves in a relationship, that’s when the relationship is over. Or, it’s over the moment we’re afraid to learn something new about ourselves."
—~Garak, from Andrew Robinson’s
A Stitch in Time (via
vaiyamagic)
thesylverlining:
If you ever suffer under the (worryingly popular) illusion that Elim Garak is cool/smooth/anything but an absolute Drama Disaster Lizard ™, I am here to inform you that in the (excellent) book A Stitch In Time written by his actor, Andrew Robinson, he:
- Gets jealous that Julian (who he calls “Julian”) is having lunch with Miles and not him
- For “the umpteenth time.” Fine! If Julian wants to ask him to lunch, he can damn well ask him! (direct quote. I don’t do the HUFF justice tho.)
- Storms off - making a concerted effort to “control his temper”
- While “controlling his temper” a man rudely bumps into him and this is just the final straw. So he - very calmly of course - follows this guy for some distance, and trips him, sending him crashing into 3 or 4 innocent bystanders, taking them down in a multiple-person pile-up, causing what is later described as “a situation” on the Promenade
- Ducks into Quark’s to hide/escape/skitter-lizard off
- Has the actual thought “wow, wasn’t Julian shooting me in the neck in the holosuite GREAT, that was amazing - but why didn’t he go further, what went wrong?? WHY DID OUR RELATIONSHIP END?” (another direct quote by the way)
- Did you get that. Garak is upset. That Julian. Only. Shot him in the neck. At this point I do not even think this is a Cardassian flirting thing, I think this is just an ‘Elim Garak, You Have Very Deep Issues’ thing, which ASIT, you know, supports
- …But it is also definitely a jealousy thing because, I mean, please just read this incredibly bisexual book (I mean, like, canonically, hell yes) - ANYWAY -
- Odo comes up a minute later to ask if he caused that “situation” because that was not at all as subtle as you thought it was, Garak, it was in fact the biggest huff anyone has ever thrown in recent memory. Get jealous and mad about lunch so push many people over, then zip away, sounds reasonable
- Nope that was an accident, completely. No idea what you’re talking about. BY THE WAY ODO, I’M THINKING ABOUT LEAVING THE STATION, BECAUSE *CLEARLY* THERE IS NOTHING KEEPING ME HERE!!! (*Jealous Huff*)
- Odo’s like “I never told you how sorry I was about Ziyal’s death.” (It’s really sweet actually.) “But at least you and Dr. Bashir still have a strong bond.”
- “Not really. I’m afraid whatever I had to offer has run its course. It’s certainly no match for darts.”
- I could not make that up. And I don’t have to. It’s in the actual book. :D
- This entire “Situation” happens in a single scene, over like 5 minutes
- In short, Garak is a Disaster Lizard and we have a book by Andrew Robinson #confirming this, and sometimes we just really do get good things
"You not only ‘saved’ my life, you also made it possible for me to live it."
