You may as well have struck the match.

Why not appeal to my better nature?

When it comes to you and me, there can be no decisive victory. 

Hannibal — Digestivo (Season 3, Episode 7)

Fair enough.

What your sister made you feel was beyond your conscious ability to control or predict.
Or negotiate.
I would suggest what Will Graham makes you feel is not dissimilar.

If you don’t kill him, you’re afraid you are going to become him.
Yes.
There are means of influence other than violence.

All I need is a stream.
In those moments where you can’t overcome your surroundings, you can make it all go away.
Put my head back, close my eyes, wade into the quiet of the stream.

Hello, Will.