



well i’ve been afraid of changing
Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants To Rule The World
Their jealousy’s spilling down
The stars must stick together
We will never be rid of these stars
But I hope they live forever
And they know just what we do
That we toss and turn at night
They’re waiting to make their moves
But the stars are out tonight
I can’t seem to face up to the facts
I’m tense and nervous and I
Can’t relax
I can’t sleep ‘cause my bed’s on fire
Don’t touch me I’m a real live wire
I don’t know why, this song always makes me feel sad…
When the DS9 opening was redone, Rick Berman said that the original conception was that the series was set at a lonely frontier outpost, but by the fourth season it was appropriate to add more ships and redo Dennis McCarthy’s theme because “we’re not lonely any more.” At the very end of the series, with the outstanding shot of the now-orphaned Jake Sisko staring out at the wormhole pulling out to the sight of the station alone in space, we’re lonely again. And so we return to a solo trumpet carrying the main Deep Space Nine theme, calling out into the void.
If anyone hasn’t had massive overwhelming heartbreaking feelings about Julian Bashir today, or has and would like to have some more, you should listen to this song.
While you’re listening, think about Jules - understanding that he made sense of the world differently to most of his peers, not getting the support he needed, not being able to make himself understood; not because he wasn’t communicating well enough, but because other people weren’t trying hard enough to listen.
Think about Jules being six years old and knowing this, and knowing his parents didn’t want him the way he was, and being told at every juncture - verbally or not - that he wasn’t good enough. Think about his parents trying so hard to justify their actions in trying to ‘fix’ him, even when he’s an adult and capable of expressing completely unambiguously how he feels and how they were wrong, and telling him he’s not equipped to understand that they did the right thing, and think of them continuing to guilt him over it even after that instead of properly acknowledging what they’d done.
Think about “all I knew was that I was a great disappointment to my parents”, and “the man who designed a better son to replace the defective one he was given”, and “Jules Bashir died in that hospital because you couldn’t bear the shame of having a son who didn’t measure up”.